Soundtrack Saturday: Only Ever Yours (Louise O’Neill)

Soundtrack Saturday is a weekly meme created and run by Erin at The Hardcover Lover. I’ve been meaning to do join in and do a soundtrack for a while now, and (finally) here it is. 

This week I’ve chosen to make a soundtrack for Only Ever Yours by Louise O’Neill, which I read a few weeks back and adored. 

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Losing Sleep – Charlotte Sometimes 
(the Beginning Song)

I’m awake and I’ve been losing sleep
I’ve been fighting all my demons
I’ve been getting weak
Cause I’ve been trying, trying, trying 
To be anything other than me

Ever Since the Chocolate – Rachel Sermani 
(Comparison Studies)

They clawed about my dress and now I’m naked
Tore holes in my soul about my neck.
The doctor says I have to wear a jacket
But as darkness falls I see this light, it’s burning at the fog and
I’ve followed ever since.

 Two Steps Forward – Emmy the Great 
(frieda and Darwin’s Song)

but
I knew you best back when love was just a feeling that ran out between my legs onto the, back of my dress
onto the clothes that i was wearing

Help I’m Alive – Metric 
(the eves Song)

I tremble
They’re gonna eat me alive
If I stumble
They’re gonna eat me alive
Can you hear my heart
Beating like a hammer

 Masterpiece – Meg and Dia 
(the eves Song)

Done by the hands of a broken artist.
You painted black where my naked heart is.
I finally know what wrong is.
Now I finally know what wrong is.
Carved like a stone with your hands still shaking.
On display through a soul still breaking.
Aren’t you proud you’re the one that made me?
Aren’t you proud you’re the one that made me?

Furniture – Amy Studt
(Meeting the Inheritants)

                                                             I am only flesh and bones,

Splintered glass and tattered clothes,

behind the skin, my fragility,
behind the skin, a skeletal impracticality,
I am only pieces of you,
held together with paper glue,
behind the skin, my divinity

behind the skin, my only sanctuary 

Pay Us No Mind – The Staves 
(frieda’s Song)

Easy come, easy go,
Tell me things I want to know.
Drink until your lips are black,
You’ve given things you’ll never get back,
Oh you silly thing

Cold sheets of linen,
Doomed from the beginning.
Do what you will,
Leave the worry to the women;
That’s our game to play

Bittersweet – Archis 
(isabel’s Song)

I could show you now but you’re never gonna see
Cause you’re watching me go up in smoke
I could shut it down, when I lose, you’re gonna leave
But you know that I’ll fall out alone
There’s secrets that you know
And secrets that I hold

Bath is Black – Marika Hackman 

(the Ending Song) 

Even though you think

To push me from the bath into the sink
I can still get clean
From everything obscene

So just pass me the soap
And I will scrub so hard to have the hope
That one day I’ll be free
And flies won’t follow me

But if the bath is black
And the soap is old
You’re turning the hot tap but the water is cold
Try as you might
Everything you’ve done has been washed out