Before becoming pregnant, I’d seen my fair share of fun pregnancy announcements and maybe dreamt a little of doing my own some day. But that’s not really how it worked out for me.
I’ve actually found the whole experience of announcing my pregnancy pretty awkward. I think there’s a few reasons for that, the main one probably being that I’m a pretty awkward person as it is – the attention and questions pregnancy brings probably doesn’t help!
I think the fact that our pregnancy wasn’t planned made me feel awkward too – I didn’t want anyone to think we were unhappy about this, as we’re not – both of us are so happy, even if it was a little surprising!
Then there was the family reaction. Just a week before I found out I was pregnant, my older sister announced she was expecting. Obviously brilliant news and I was very happy for her, but there was a little voice in the back of my mind reminding me that I might also be pregnant, and wondering what the reactions to that would be.
I mostly worried that my sister would be angry and that I would be taking away from her happiness. Obviously that didn’t happen, she was one of the first people I told and she was really happy for us and has been just great. But I did worry.
And that worry was multiplied by about a billion when I thought about telling my mom. It actually put a dampener on the first few weeks because I was so afraid about what she would say. Deep down I knew that she couldn’t really do anything awful – the worst that could happen would be her being angry/disappointed, and that would be her problem, not mine. But still, I did so want her to be happy.
I knew the problem in her eyes would be that we weren’t ready. I know most parents probably feel like that about their children, and she had some valid points – my job at the time wasn’t great, Nathan was just started a new job and we’d only just moved out of her house. I felt it was easier for my mom to be happy for her, which was upsetting.
I’m a little sad I didn’t get to announce my pregnancy in some fun, cute way and have everyone overjoyed for me. Maybe that’ll happen next time, who knows? But I do know that it doesn’t really matter what everyone else’s reactions are, because it’s me and Nathan and the baby that really matter 🙂